I’m smiling but my heart is broken..
I’ve decided that I am no longer going to date. It is just a messy process that causes you to wonder if you will ever find that right person for you. Dating equates to trying a new beauty product. Let’s say for example everyone, everywhere is talking about this amazing new hair cream. I mean this is the best hair cream you could possibly buy and it is decently priced. You hear all these wonderful reviews with people ranting on about how super duper amazing this product is. After reading your millionth view or watching your billionth video, you finally decide to see what all of the hype is about. I mean, don’t get me wrong, you are excited to try this. Then after you apply the hair cream, you realize it makes your hair look greasy. Such a disappointment, such a let-down.
It can be really hard when we don’t get the same experiences from something that other people get. I know when I see people walking on campus holding hands, or writing cute messages on their Facebook walls, of course I get a little jealous. For me its been a long road. I’ve had love, lost it and been single for about three years and there have been so many failed “relationships” between that time. Either the person wasn’t feeling me or I wasn’t feeling them. But I’m done with it all because the truth of it is, there is someone for everyone. There are many nice people in this world, and just because you meet one doesn’t mean that you will live happily ever after with that person.
You shouldn’t have to go through so much heartache and failure to finally end up with the right person. I think it can just come when the time is right. There’s no need to fight it or search for it or make an eHarmony account. That person will stumble into my life on of these days, even though it seems like its taking forever. One day I’ll get to walk down the street hand-in-hand with someone and one day I’ll get cute Facebook messages on my wall.